I am a nineteen year old girl. I load trucks for a living at...

I am a nineteen year old girl. I load trucks for a living at United Parcel Services.

I dont think I've ever came home not hurting.

I had about the worst night of my life tonight.

My knees hurt, my back hurts, my arms hurt and all I think about the whole time I'm at work is what I can do besides "keeping on".

I know you hear this all the time and I've never done this before, as a matter of fact I dont even have cable or anything to watch your show, but my mom has read your books and told me about your struggles and why she loves you. It's not because your show, its because of the many things you've been through to get where you are today.

Besides the point that everyday is just a routine.

I want to tell you something.

My mom is a labor worker, along with my dad and I have tooken the same route while I'm still taking morning classes.

Why do I feel like this is it?

My mom is 50 years old carrying mail up hills in the snow and my dad is 52 pouring concret his whole life. We just got a notice that my dads credit is so bad that we now live off my moms one income.

I pay for college on my own and I am no longer on my parents insurance.

This is our life. My parents had 6 kids. One passed, ones a marine, ones in the army and my sister just joined the army, me trying to take a different route and go to college and my little sister in highschool.

They fostered my cousins, while letting my aunt live with us ( shes a recovering drug user) and my uncle that has cancer.

After they moved out, we now took in my dads sister and his friend (bother recovering drug users).

I wake up every morning wondering if this is life?

If this is how its always going to be?

My back hurting, my one bit of mind keeping me going.

I love my parents more than anything and I cant even help them. My car recently broke down and my bill for dmacc (des moines area community college) just came in and all I have time for is my one job.
All my friends have smiles on their faces and have time to live life. I just feel like im so young to be hurting and getting no where.

Well I dont know if this will make a difference but its all I really have time to tell. I cant put everything in words and I pry sound like I'm complaining but it isn't like that. I work so hard and so do my parents! I would just love to have a little help. It doesnt matter what it is. I just need that extra boost to keep my eyes awake.

I would rather it be for my parents.

I just cant take this anymore.

If you do read this Oprah, thanks for letting me pour out. I needed it.

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