judith marie vilbon I AM MISTRESS
1. If a man is married and stays married and has you on the side, then you are only a side piece.
You are simply there because you agree to be there.
Occasionally he may become so besotted that he will contemplate or maybe even leave his wife, but even in that circumstance, most of the time, it's more about his needing to leave anyway and you providing a convenient safety net.
Men lie. Well, we all lie. We lie to get what we want. We lie to ourselves, so what makes you think that Mr. Man is not lying to you?
He told you he doesn't love her?
What line do you think he used on his wife, when she found out about your last tryst?
The same one. Verbatim.
3. The wives of men who cheat, sometimes have agendas, sometimes they have a purpose greater than you can know. If they stay, they may stay for a myriad of reasons.
Don't assume stupidity is one of them.
4. Don't believe the "it's not where he is, it's where he wants to be" myth. Where he is, is where he wants to be period.
Trust me, don't fall into that trap.
I know a woman who was a man's mistress for at least twenty years.
She was and is a beautiful, elegant, educated woman.
I don't know what he told her to keep her hanging on in there for all those years, it must have been good. Long and short, this man had a heart attack and left everything to his wife and kids. His mistress and her child were left nothing.
Their names weren't even penciled into the will. She couldn't see the body. She couldn't mourn him publicly.
She was a shadow widow, just like she was a shadow wife. She went to the memorial alone, her friends refused to go, and she sat at the back like a nobody.
As she sat there crying about his death, she began to realize that in his real life, she was nobody to him. His friends that knew her, pretended otherwise.
She was a strictly after midnight, no status.
I think about her a lot. I wonder how a woman like that could have fallen prey.
I wrote my first novel because I wanted to talk about how women feel when they are pressured to marry, but there is a secondary pressure.
The desire to find love. When time starts racing by, you start to become afraid.
The question of whether you'll ever find love begins to ring in your head, like an unwanted bell. You start to panic.
You think deep inside even though you might proclaim otherwise that maybe you won't find that perfect love. So sometimes when a counterfeit comes around, showing you all the romance you felt would come with that perfect love but none of the commitment, you think that you have to settle for less. Don't feel bad, so many of us have fallen for their verse.
It is practiced so it's convincing, but it's no more real than the world they are promising you. Any man that is serious will close one door before opening another.
This is fact, simple and true.
Tell yourself what you like...but find a little time to tell yourself the truth.
These so called jumpoffs and sidepieces that self medicate with gucci and prada are sometimes dying inside.
They don't tell you that sometimes, he doesn't take their calls for days or weeks.
They don't tell you that they have to beg sometimes for the money that they flash around like lottery winners.
They don't tell you that sometimes, they get lonely.
They don't tell you that sometimes they hate who they have become.
I guess that is what gets to me the most. I told that girl in my living room and I am telling you. If you are on the verge of making this choice.
Don't choose him. Choose you. Don't give up everything you believe for a person that has made no commitment to you. Don't give up the right to dignity for a little bit of intimacy, don't give up being alone and end up lonely.
You are worth more. You deserve to live and walk in the light.
You deserve to subsist on more than crumbs, you deserve the cake.
I understand that fear, believe me I do. I think that sometimes that books and movies set us up. They are about romance, not love. When the screen gets blurry and the music starts, what is happening is not love, its romance.
Love is commitment, pure and simple.
It is not necessarily sexy. It doesn't necessarily come with perfect words.
It simply is.
And if you stop looking for the lies, you will see the truth and say it.
Anyone reading this, I am telling you...it is as the Bible says, God is not mocked.
It is the principle of the world even, what you sow, you will reap. I tell you, any tears you cause any woman to shed over your relationship (whatever level it is) with her husband, you will weep doubly when and if you get married.
Secondly, it is a dangerous business, stepping outside of God's covering.
I posted this here because so many "good" girls are falling for the lie and before you know it, they leave their morals and their faith behind because of shame.
My darling, I don't speak because I am perfect, I speak because I know all too well. No matter how lonely you are, no matter how fine he is, or how lonely he claims to be, you deserve more. You are worth more.
And if you have fallen, if you are there, maybe he is sleeping right beside you right now...it is not too late to get up and say no more. Never mind the lies that float around in your head saying you are ruined.
You are not ruined.
What was Mary Magdalene, what about Rahab, no one is ruined before God. He is watching you and wanting you to come back to Him. He will receive you with open arms.
You are loved.
By the most High. Now tell me what man made from dust can compete with that?